Northwest Airlines Flight 253

United States #FAIL. If it was not for the fact that the explosive device that was ignited, did not detonate as planned,we would be burying another plane full of innocent people.Umar Farouk Abdulmutallab, 23, a native of Nigeria was on the terrorist "watch" list but Not on the do not fly list.Excuse me, but wtf put someone on such a list if it virtually means nothing.Im furious that he was not body searched. Im furious that the only reason people are alive is because passengers took action.We are no safer now, with "Homeland security" then we were w/o it. Little old ladies from Florida are searched better than this Asshat was.Close your eyes and imagine the newspapers headlines had the bomb exploded instead of causing a fire.The day AFTER, they boast about security being heightened. It was a holiday with many planes flying, what the hell?#FAIL #FAIL #FAIL

"Chairity"

The word charity totally makes me come unglued. Just because someone has fallen on hard times is no reason they should have to eat macaroni & cheese,peanut butter,canned veggies etc.. you get the picture.I have friends, several right now that are in bad shape for various reasons.I am lending a hand where & when i can. Sometimes i dont have it to give.But it outrages me that they feel badly to accept help. That is what friends DO.I do not "do" charity". I help friends.When & if i can. I do it for very selfish reasons. It makes me happy. Im blessed in my life, and was always taught from childhood to SHARE.I don't care who you are in life, if you have, you need to put it out there. It's the only way you will CONTINUE to "have".If you have not learned this by now, you will not learn it from my words.The rule I have always lived by, treat others as you want to be treated. I can never in my life recall wanting to be treated with piety,sympathy,or like a "charity" case.I know this is a bit of a rant & probably be called the "roid" journals for awhile. I apologize. But this is something that has been on my mind..it is now off it.<3

If ur gonna ride my ass,at least pull my hair

On my way home from work tonight, it was so foggy you couldn't see the lines on the road. I go home on a unlit country road that at this time of year the Deer run rampant,I grazed one about a month ago.No damage to SUV, but there was a tuft of hair and a small bit of blood.But I digress, there was one lone jackass on the road & he thought just because he was following MY taillights so closely,the vision ahead must be just dandy.Twas NOT.Mind you im on 80 mg of steroids (still) & at this point I could become a bit of a jackass too.I was doing 45 mph which under the circumstances was more than enough.So no Mr.(or Mrs.) "i wanna see what kind of gun u carry"(it's a Bersa 380 Thunder) Turn their high beam lights on me.(and get closer still) Mind you again, i STILL have tubes in my chest & don't need to be fist fighting on an empty stretch of road.I could bleed out in a Nano second.So i do the next best thing, i call my daughter & tell her to not answer my next call. I called her phone and SCREAMED at her voice mail. It may have saved a life.High beams are now FLASHING on & off at me.Finally Mr. or Mrs. jackass decide to turn off. Concord NC has the worst & most dangerous drivers around. Even on a good day, this road is 55mph and they either do 35 or 75, pick yer poison.They ride your ass,pass on a solid line,cut you off,don't use turn signals (redneck vehicles are not standard with them)or just plain run into you.So you dumb bastards who were on my ass tonight, you better be damn happy i was not roid raging, you got me close to it, but my life is going so well right now,even you couldn't screw it up.Be thankful i love my family,have a gentler heart than i did even a short month ago,and no i was not carring my evil twin "roxanne" (the 380). Go to church Sunday,donate to charity,or just do something nice for someone. You have NO idea how badly tonight could have turned out over you being so ignorant.

Just had to say this

All of us,no matter who we are, have a cross to bear at one time or another in our lives. I used to be flippant as hell as far as taking things seriously. dont get me wrong, i took my duties as a mother serious as hell, these are my lifes work, my purpose for living.My kids, or my love for them kept me from doing alot of stupid things, including giving up when that would have been the easiest road to take. Last week I had a very near death experience that most of my twitter friends know about. they all rallied to my side with kind words, prayers,thoughts & various other forms of affection. They have NO idea how wonderful it was to see such an outpouring of love from virtual strangers. We chat all the time. we share sorrows, joys, news, good things,bad things, really personal things. but we share. Of course there are the few dysfunctional's that cant get along with anyone..we reach out to them too. but the thing that stands out most in my mind is the fact that we all come to chat for a reason. twitter was ment to be 1 question: what are you doing? but it has evolved into a support system for a lot of people that genuinely CARE about what you are doing. When total strangers get to know each other as well as some of us on here have, theres a reason for it. most of the people i chat with have my phone# and i have theirs. the world is a hurting place right now. a lot of people are falling on hard times. and while their are those that relish in the failures of others, the ones i know do not. So i want to say openly, if we are friends, and you are hurting, I AM here for you. even if it's just to rant, cry, or share something YOU need to say. People are put on this earth to help each other. so often we get wraped up in our own little disasters we forget other people are hurting too. reach out to someone, make a damn difference. your world will be a better place for it.

Why people cheat

If you have ever had to lie to your mate about where your going, where you've been, whether you've had a drink, a joint, masturbate,or anything else, you are probably a candidate for cheating.In this life we meet all kinds of people. We get into relationships & commitments for varied reasons. Sometimes it's with absolute good intentions,but after the first 6-9 months boredom slips in, the mundane everyday tasks of paying bills, arguing over stupid things that don't matter, endearing qualities that have now become annoying nails on the proverbial blackboard. But instead of owning up to the fact that the two are just not compatible, they keep up the front for friends & family. women are desperate to land Mr. right, men want the Barbie doll that makes their friends drool. Im not saying that marriage & monogamy are impossible,I have been married 3 times & NEVER cheated. I was was once so in love that I never even noticed a hot guy walking past me. Do you know how intoxicating it is to have a fantasy, and your actually in love the person your fantasizing about? (and he loves you too?) Pride, ego, insecurity..these are all factors in cheating. Men worry about the ability to still "score". that is his womans fault. If you make your man feel like the god of fuck that he IS to you, he won't stray. If you belittle him in front of his friends, your opening the door for it. men & women lie & hide things from each other. afraid of what the other would think if they truly knew what their secret sexual desires were. Communication is KEY. If you like something TELL him, ask him what HIS biggest fantasy is, you may be surprised to find it isn't the old 2 girls in bed thing as most men did that shit in their college days.As a woman, have you ever grabbed your man by the shirt collar and thrown him down on the bed? Have you ever climbed into the shower with him while his face was soapy,eyes closed & just got down on your knees? Have you ever pulled a mans backbone out(sexually) thats how mine described what i did to him. Cheating is the single most horrible thing you can do to a person. It is humiliating,degrading,lonley & destroying. some couples do recover from it, but usually down the road the marriage/relationship ends,because it never really goes away.Do not stay with someone just because it's easier than leaving. do not get with someone because you think you can change them. you can't.If your an average looking male, forget the Barbie doll, shes more into her self than she will ever be into you. Opposites attract? eh, sometimes, but that won't last either.HONESTY attracts. being able to hold a conversation attracts. I firmly believe sex starts by fucking the mind,love starts by caressing the heart,and if your ever lucky enough to find the mate with whom you can FUCK & MAKE LOVE to at the same time, there will be no cheating. I don't care if there are kids involved, that's not an excuse to stay in a weak relationship. do your kids a favor, split, remain friends & show them that adults can still care even if they cant coincide. before you jump into the sack with someone, have the conversations, be truthful. Im a 52 year old great grandmother with the sex drive of an 18 year old boy on crack. I have never had the "headache" in fact...sex will relieve the headache, it also gets rid of menstrual cramps. If your a woman, and you don't like going down on a man, you had better let that little bomb out up front. He deserves to know. If you are a woman, and the man you desire is a player, womanizer or just plain slut puppy, then your for warned, he most likey isn't going to change for you. Men , if shes flirty, winks at your friends while your back is turned or spends more time worring about herself than you & her together, you have also been warned. some people find the perfect match once in their lives. some never find it. Have enough sense to know when it's not the real deal. also have enough sense to know if it IS the real thing, never take it for granted. Keep it alive, nourish it. Climb on top of his back one night with a bottle of baby oil & just slide all over him. do things he does expect from sweet lil ol you. If this seems like to much work for you, then yeah, you'll probably find HER # tucked away somewhere. Cheating is not just the fault of the one committing the initial act, if you have let yourself go, if you have forgot about his/her needs, if you take for granted for one single minute that they will always be there, your setting your self up for the fall. Cheating is a selfish act, that comes from many selfish acts, lonliness,boredom etc..it is a subject that the two people involved have to sort out if thats even possible. I do not think it should be held up for public ridicule, that won't solve anything. Jerry Hall used to make Mick Jagger buy her jewelery every time he got caught, she settled for that, right up until he knocked up the lil babe in Argentina..then she got pissed and left him. they played their own game..it failed. If you love you mate, be kind, be good, be true, be a slut in the bed room, a lady in the parlor & a chef in the kitchen, but above all, be there for him. He may not be perfect, but as humans none of us are. learn to forgive willingly,kiss deeply,know when to fuck his brains out & know when to cuddle like kids. Peace.

Family

I dont know if it's because it's the holidaze, or because i just had a very near death experience, but i have changed. No im still the gothic queen i enjoy so much,but things in my mind and heart have changed. I have forgiveness for people that have done me wrong. I have love for strangers that have it worse than i do. I have compassion for people that i never thought i would. I am perhaps a kinder, gentler version of my former self. I let my kids know every day how much they mean to me. I have been in touch with cousins & family members that i have not sent an actual letter to in years (e-mail is so impersonal) Sunrises make me smile, sunsets soothe my soul. music sounds richer,deeper,more meaningful.People on twitter can't piss me off. ok perhaps a wee bit, but thats the steroids..that will pass as they lower the dosages. The home is decorated for Christmas,lights are up, the smell of cinnamon is every where. the tree is decorated (purple lights & black velvet balls & some purple glass balls..a bit gothic but like i said, thats not changing) I feel alive! I feel love again. I will not let one single person i care about go one minute with out them knowing how dear they are to me. I wish everyone could feel this! Happy holidays to all my friends..

CROCS OF SHIT

Even purple (OOO they come in colors!!) can't help these hideous pieces of foot ware. I have seen them on EVERYONE, even lil Shiloh Jolie -Pitt was forced to sport a pair in a recent pic. They are esthetically offensive and if you wear or have ever worn them..i am sorry, YOU are a dork.

Darrion Albert

Christian Fenger Academy High School has nothing to be proud of. Monique Bond, Chicago Public Schools spokeswoman, has denounced the beating as "gang related" and NOT a reflection on the school. Madam, your part of the problem. I could say something about "Christian's" (as they all attended the "christian" academy), I could say something racial (but they were all black). I could get just as degraded and ferocious as the KIDS in the video, but then i would be on their level.( I am not). This isn't a crime of any of the a fore mentioned. It IS a crime against humanity & human nature. It is not an American burden, beatings like this happen globally. If watching the video didn't make you absolutely sick to your stomach, then sadly your apathy is showing. Truth is..we are all to blame. People in general have become numb to the violence and hatred that run rampant in society. The kids that filmed the video acted like they were watching some movie or something. They sure as hell weren't calling 911. Chicago wants to be a host to the Olympics...I am thinking NOT. Here is the video. I do not blame anyone that does not want to view this, it's horrendous, disgusting and vile. Just imagine your child (or you if you have no children) being beat to death in a crowded street with a 2x4. Sleep well..after all this isn't YOUR child or town. YET.
http://all4freehere.com/2009/09/honor-student-beaten-to-death-in-chicago/

The people of Walmart

Brothers Andrew and Adam Kipple and A friend Luke Wherry have started a viral phenom. The images on their site portray the people seen on a daily basis at local Walmart stores. Some of them are funny, some a tad distasteful, but all are amusing. So a friendly reminder, when you take your next trip to "wally world" you may want to take a look in the mirror before leaving the house!

Comments?

I have been on twitter a little over a month. I have met some fantastic people there. These are people i would have never crossed paths with in my real life, but now they are dear friends and almost like family. I worry about the one with the earache, I feel sad for the one who's uncle passed away. I can relate to the one who's job is hard and tiring. I get feed back and info from the ones who's lifestyles are so different from mine. I follow ones golf games, I pray for the ones that are sick, and rejoice for the ones that have found love & light. There is also another side of the twitter deal that bothers me. I spoke to someone once and they warned me about 2 people that i tweet with. Mind you, she calls them "babe" and is sweet as hell when she tweets them. I suspect there is a jealousy going on, but thats not my business. Why are people so critical of others? we are all human, no one is perfect. What do people get out of broadcasting other peoples business? How would WE feel if everyday our personal failures or love lives were told to the world? no one should feel bad for the way they are in this life. Fat, thin, bald, short, tall,white,black, straight ,gay..whatever...live and let live! Does it make one feel better to belittle someone else? The people i have met are total strangers to me, but they are so supportive of me and each other. If you really want to meet some outstanding examples of 100% real people go to my twitter page and follow my ones that i follow. i only have 23 followers since i locked my account, but they are the best you will find anywhere. I just felt the need to let this out. thx for taking the time to read.

Condoms are your friend

This is inspired by a convo i saw the other night. If your a man who refuses to wear a condom when asked, then you are part of a still growing problem. Hiv has not gone away. There are people being infected at alarming rates. Media is partially to blame. You can see commercials all day long for Tampons, Prostrate, vaginal care, Viagra,Cialis etc..but the condom commercials are few & far between. The two fastest growing populations for infection are the 19-35 age group and the 55-70 year olds! (thx to Viagra). Aside from being totally irresponsible, it's not fair to your unsuspecting partner. So as far as i am concerned ladies, it's up to you. If he refuses to wear a condom, then no sex! Period.

First,last & only comment on Miley

I am by no means "old fashioned". I like to think I am fairly open minded. But the way Miss Cyrus carries herself in public is really just a glimpse of another Britney waiting to happen. I will bet money she does a Playboy spread before she is 22. Shame on her parents for letting her expose herself in such a manner. Billy Ray, is your career so tanked you need to pimp your kid out? Normally I wouldn't give a rats ass about "Hollywierds" kids gone wild, but I have a grand daughter that thinks Miley is the end all. All the suzy cream cheese crap she portrays on the Disney channel & in her movies is very misleading to a lot of parents who are looking for a good role model for their impressionable "tweens". Trust me..Miley Cyrus isn't it. I would rather my grand daughter look up to someone like Lindsey Lohan, at least she is straight up about who she is. I can't believe I am in here trashing a 16 year old, but for the record, it didn't take much..she already had a running start. Miley, this is what people who have no real or lasting talent do. Yes dear..Sex sells.

Banned Cartoons

I make no secret of the fact that i am a Grandmother, in fact a great grandmother as well. The other day while the kids were watching "Baby Einstein" dvd's for the umpteenth time, I decided to find some of the old cartoons from my childhood to share with them. Imagine my surprise when I find out that all of my favorites are now BANNED! Thats right, they are now politically incorrect. With titles such as: Popeye's "Your a sap,Mr. Jap." WWll's Disney offering "Der Fuhrer's face." Bugs Bunny's "Tokio-Jokio." Tex Avery's "Red hot riding hood" Sylvester & Tweety "Satan's waitin" ...and the list goes on. My personal fav "Little black Sambo" is an absolute no-no. A whole generation was raised on these cartoons, that seemed to be nothing but political. I can see now how so many people from my generation are racist. It was drilled into our lil heads in the form of entertainment. I do not condone them being banned though. Sadly so much of our early history was so bad, the powers that be don't see fit to let parents decide what to expose (or not) their children to. I would like to think i have enough sense to let my older kids watch them, without them becoming skinheads, gay bashers, or racist. This really pisses me off that the Government feels a need to police freeking cartoons. It scares me as to what may be next.

Man blames cat for child porn downloads

Keith Griffin of Jensen Beach Florida, is charged with 10 counts of possession of child pornography after detectives found more than 1,000 images on his home computer. Jensen maintains that he was downloading music when he left the room. He claims his cat must have walked across the keyboard, downloading the child porn.Perhaps the cat thought it was "kitty porn". This loser needs to be locked up and the key fed to his kitty cat.

NFL Allows Vick Back

As an avid animal lover, this piece of shit excuse of a man disgusts me. The fact that he could be playing in a sport that so many of our youth get their hero's from is reprehensible. I don't see how the powers that be could ever think this man would ever have a career again.
*** I am leaving my original post up. I have however changed my opinion. After reading Mr.Vick's apology, stating his desire to work with animal shelters & become a role model for kids, I had to stop and think. If he is sincere, and IF he actually does the things he said he would do... who better to be a role model? He has been on the wrong side of the law, done his time, and is asking publicly for another chance.A lot of kids today find themselves in the same situation as Mr. Vick. I would like to think i am a woman of compassion and have a great capacity for forgiveness. Not that my small opinion makes a bit of difference, but we have to forgive to be forgiven. My best wishes to Michael Vick, and to the people that had more compassion than me. I learned a small lesson here.

women of abuse

Ladies this is a serious problem in alot of cultures today. There is NO excuse to stay in an abusive relationship. Abuse comes in more than one form, you don't have to be physically hit to be abused.Mental abuse (controling,name calling,manipulation etc..) these are all forms of abuse. The excuse that "I love him" is just that, an excuse. If you have children in the home, they are learning by your example. The boys will learn to be abusive to women, and the girls will learn to take it. There is no law in this land that sez a woman has to have a man to be complete. Learn who you are, learn to love yourself, because before you can love someone else, you HAVE to love yourself.I know all the excuses, as i have used them myself. Money is usually a huge barrier to a woman leaving a bad relationship/marriage. Divorce is against your religion is another. I am working two jobs and stashing money back like Dillinger on crack. Making the decision to leave is hard, but it's NOT your failure. The abuser has to own this himself.You know you have given all of your heart and soul, let that be enough.Reach out to friends, family, your religious affiliations, womens shelters, or even ME. I am getting out of my situation and i would be more than willing to help someone in need. I have found the parts of myself that i let someone else smother for the last 10 years. It IS possible to get out with both your dignity and life. Please do not "settle" for an unhappy existance. Anyone who needs help with this type of situation, please feel free to contact me razorxmuse@yahoo.com If you are in a life threatining situation or just need to blow off steam to a live person who cares, i will make my cell # available follow me on twitter and send me a message, @razorxmuse. No one should have to live this way. There are good men/women out there, but before you can persue any relationship outside of the one your in, you have to "fix you". Only then will you be truly ready to expierence love at it's fullest.