Family

I dont know if it's because it's the holidaze, or because i just had a very near death experience, but i have changed. No im still the gothic queen i enjoy so much,but things in my mind and heart have changed. I have forgiveness for people that have done me wrong. I have love for strangers that have it worse than i do. I have compassion for people that i never thought i would. I am perhaps a kinder, gentler version of my former self. I let my kids know every day how much they mean to me. I have been in touch with cousins & family members that i have not sent an actual letter to in years (e-mail is so impersonal) Sunrises make me smile, sunsets soothe my soul. music sounds richer,deeper,more meaningful.People on twitter can't piss me off. ok perhaps a wee bit, but thats the steroids..that will pass as they lower the dosages. The home is decorated for Christmas,lights are up, the smell of cinnamon is every where. the tree is decorated (purple lights & black velvet balls & some purple glass balls..a bit gothic but like i said, thats not changing) I feel alive! I feel love again. I will not let one single person i care about go one minute with out them knowing how dear they are to me. I wish everyone could feel this! Happy holidays to all my friends..