With Love I'll remember you

Your hand in mine, your last breath you took.
Your heart stopped.
My heart shook.
You left this world, finally tonight,
No pain nor sadness, your soul took flight.
You called me Dark Angel & squeezed my hand,
I slipped a tear for a precious man.
I watched your throat swallow it's last time,
You couldn't tell the lump in mine.
Your family there I had to be strong,
At home now Im weak,but not for long.
For the Moon is bright, Im sure it's you,
showing me a path steadfast & true.
All your wisdom & all your years,
just wouldn't tolerate to many tears.
There's work to be done, for others in need,
You gave inspiration I shall heed.
This hot summer night, with a mist in my eye,
kissed your forehead & bid you goodbye.
So dear man your wife awaits,
she'll guide you from here to Heavens Gates,
I'll watch over those you left behind,
Till we meet again sweet friend of mine.
With much love.Goodbye.

CHEESE SCONES

An old Irishman lay dying in his bed.
While suffering the agonies of impending death, he suddenly smelled the aroma of his favorite cheese scones wafting up the stairs.
He gathered his remaining strength, and lifted himself from the bed.

Leaning against the wall, he slowly made his way out of the bedroom, and
with even greater effort, gripping the railing with both hands, he crawled
downstairs.
With labored breath, he leaned against the door frame,
gazing into the kitchen.

Were it not for death's agony, he would have thought himself already in heaven, for there, spread out upon waxed paper on the kitchen table were dozens of his favorite cheese scones! Was it heaven? Or was it one final act of heroic love from his devoted Irish wife of sixty years, seeing to it that he left this world a happy man?

Mustering one great final effort, he threw himself towards the table, landing on his knees in a rumpled posture.
His parched lips parted, he could almost taste the cheese scone before it was in his mouth, seemingly bringing him back to life.

The aged and withered hand trembled on its way to the nearest scone at the edge of the table, when his hand was suddenly smacked with a spatula by his wife.

"Fuck off!! " she said, "They're for the funeral

Son of Anarchy

I got a phone call the other night..2am. THOSE are never good calls.The last one was New Years Eve..both sons out on motorcycles. It didn't end well.Anyway I digress.I answered the phone with my Credit Card in hand..but I was floored at the convo that followed.I thought he was a bit drunk. he was not. He just wanted to shoot the shit with mom. How kool is THAT? He told me he used to sneak into my poem books when he was little.He told me my writing blew him away even back then. He thanked me for making him the man he was today (I was so proud). He has my eyes,my temper & my ability for forgiveness.He has my love of life,my ability to over come bullshit.He has my heart.He knows you treat people the way you want to be treated.Most of my friends that have FB & kids tell me their kids won't allow them to say "I love you" on their wall..everyone of my kids posts "I love you mom" regularly.My boys kiss me in public, in front of their friends.They would fight to death if anyone ever harmed me.It's moments like these & phone calls like those that make raising 4 kids as a single mom totally worth every second of it.They KNOW who & what I am, they accept my flaws & treat them as assets.So it appears that I have done well with this child rearing thang. I am blessed.I love each & every one of you. BTW I would fight to the death for all of you too. Love.."Ma Dukes"..or as one calls me "The mother ship"

Two weeks

I can't get this off my mind tonight, so I figured I'd blog.I have been taking care of a man for the past four years. I started working for him when he was 99 years old. I didn't think the job would last long (for obvious reasons).But it has lasted long enough for me to become attached to him.The sun is now setting on his long & wonderful life,but no matter how I play it out in my head it still sucks. Mr.B would be 103 on July 30,but the Dr. sez that's not gonna happen.(Heart cracks a bit).This man has lived 102 YEARS.He founded the Boys & Girls club in the town where he lives.He is STILL a member of the Rotary Club, was a founder of not 1 but 2 local banks. He owned the Coca-Cola companies in the state we live in.He gave generously to over 100 charity's faithfully.A man who attended church every Sunday, and when he got to where he couldn't get around as well, watched sermons on TV.(Heart cracks a bit more).A man with a very dry sense of humor,but when he did find something to be funny, his laughter was enchanting.He never wanted anyone to wait on him,even up until 2 weeks ago when he started getting sick,he got around with a walker,got up for his own glass of water,bathed him self..he did everything.2 weeks ago he could carry on a conversation just like you or I can. 2 weeks.His mind went quickly.He no longer knows who I am, nor his family.Maybe that's God's way of letting him keep his pride during the humiliation of dying.(Heart now breaks).I don't think I will take on anymore patients once he passes. I have been through this before & it never gets easier.He asked me once if I thought God forgot about him. No,kind man,he didn't forget about you.God knew there were people who needed & loved you, and THEY will never forget about you.Im off tonight,but still I dread hearing the phone ring in the middle of the night. I know it's totally selfish, but I want to be there with him when he closes those Blue eyes for the last time.I want to run my hand across his forehead into his silver hair & let him know it's ok to go.It's ok to meet his wife(she's waiting with loving arms),it's ok to leave the weak,selfish ones like me behind.Im sad because I will miss him so much, but I can't even think of depriving him of the rest he has so gallantly earned.I will miss you my friend. But it's ok to go.

The ripple effect

If you are naive enough to believe BP will have enough money to EVER make this "right", consider this...This is not a picture of Alabama,Louisiana or Mississippi.This is Florida's "Sugar" beach.A whole NEW horizon of destruction.Still think BP can recover? A ship's Captain, a father of four, boarded his vessel & took his own life.Suicide,if you will. Domestic violence has increased 320%!!! on the Gulf Coast.Family's are considering moving away.The GUSHER is far worse than we are being told.Every single day BP adjusts it's estimates of how much oil is contaminating the ocean.ENTIRE species of aquatic life shall die off.Tens of thousands of lawsuits have & will be filed.One thing I have learned as a Private duty Nurse to one of the richest men in N.C. is this: Sometimes NO amount of money can stop nature from running it's course.The man I take care of is dying. All his money can't save him.There is a tropical storm brewing as I type this.If the storm turns into a full blown Hurricane, what in the name of God does BP think they can do? The situation is beyond critical and the way we are being bullshitted is criminal. Louisiana went so far as to STOP people from placing barges to catch the oil, because they didn't have the proper permits!!! This is the most hideous crime against not only Nature, but Man,Woman & Children as well.BP as of yesterday were burning Sea Turtles ALIVE! I hope & pray that the fires of Hell burn as hot for the people responsible for this, as they do on top of our Ocean waters.

Sexy hair colors?

Hair color is a huge part of my life. I love the fact that I can change the color when ever the mood hits me.The one thing that always amazes me is the misconception that Blond's have more fun.In my humble opinion..bullshit. Men may be attracted to the fair hairs, but in truth they think the old stereotype holds true..blond women are, shall we say, not so bright.Men love Black hair & the mystery & exotic lure of it. They secretly want to play on the darkside. Most of the men I know do not care for the natural redhead, but throw a sizzling Auburn on them & their knees get weak. They imagine a seductress with a fiery temper & smoldering sexual prowess.When my hair is Black it seems to set men a back.When it's Auburn, I get far more doors opened for me.I was Blond for about 8 years & it seemed to attract a really sleazy class of men..no thanks.Just an observation on a Thursday night.

Pain & beauty

I spent the better part of my day wearing a pair of Stiletto's. There is only 1 reason a sane woman would DO this,(and no i am NOT an Exotic dancer). It is purely for the men we love..remember ladies ALWAYS point that toe! Other women know what we pay for these (it in of it self is ridiculous)I have never put a pair on & said to myself..damn these are comfortable! So men, if your little squeeze wears these..it's for YOU, you damn beasts of visual gratification.

Pervez Hilton

Let me preface by saying I was much happier before I ever knew this kind of Asshat existed on this planet. That being said,his latest round of celeb coat-tailing was aimed at 17 year old Miley Cyrus.It does not matter if you like Miss Cyrus or not. She IS a minor & did not deserve to be exploited on Pervez's Twitter page.He bragged a "crotch shot" which he had photo shopped a pic of Hello Kitty over her actual crotch.Pervez has made his career out of a crap load of lame drawings over real pictures of celebs. My belief is the only reason half the people that follow him, do so just to see if he is slandering,exploiting...them.I HATE seeing his name tweeted, I hate when people draw attention to him. I hate that im even posting this,but this time his childish bullshit is pending criminal investigation.I hope they nail his candy ass.

Dance face

EVERYONE who dances does this. Im guilty of having a "dance face", my question is..why? Some pooch their lips out, some bite the lower lip, but no matter what method you use, it is ALWAYS there with you on the dance floor. And it's fucking hilarious to watch.Don't believe me? The next time you get case of happy feet just TRY to dance without making THAT face!

Audie Murphy

Dig this. This Texas farm boy enlisted in the Army in 1942.His sister signed his papers even though he wasn't old enough to fight.Just weeks past his 17th birthday.The dude was 5'5" tall, and 110 pounds soaking wet.The Navy,the Air corps & the Marines all turned him away because he was so little.From 1943 to his discharge in France in June 1945 Murphy earned a staggering 33 medals for valor & performance from the United States,5 from the French government and 1 from Belgium.He destroyed 6 German tanks,and SINGLE-handedly killed more than 240 enemy soldiers in ONE encounter.He was awarded the Medal of Honor, Distinguished service Cross,3 Purple Hearts , 2 Silver Stars,2 Bronze stars among many others, and the highest awards from both France & Belgium. All before his 21st birthday. Murphy died( ironically) in a Memorial day plane crash in 19771.He is buried at Arlington Cemetery. So what have you done today?

Penis & Condom giggles

I was at CVS today and spotted a pack of Condoms labeled SLENDER. Are you kidding me? No man is going to pull out the lil magic "get laid" card that has SLENDER emblazoned all over it. It's almost as much of a deal breaker as the SUPER MAGNUM. And for your added enjoyment..dig this http://www.trojancondoms.org/index.php/average-penis-size-with-survey-charts-pics-and-graphs/

Dawn dish liquid

There is not a lot that everyday average people like you & I can do about the offshore slaughter going on in the Gulf coastal region. There is one thing we can all do to help. Dawn dish liquid is what they use to bathe the animals in to remove the toxic oil deposits.Mad props to Dawn for donating $1.00 for every bottle sold,to help the oil clean up globally.They were doing this long before the latest assault on nature by man.

Christian Kane

This is something new to me that recently caught my eye. Not only is he hotter than Satan's ass,his voice is like a hot whisper, dripping with total come fuck me overtones.Im smitten. For now anyway.I'll rob the cradle..he can rob the grave.

Cheating revisited

Once again I have to ask the question,why the hell are people so concerned about who's nailing who? Why do we all act SO shocked?Every Hollyweird star that signs on to do a movie with another star, ends up in the rack.That chemistry excuse is getting a tad wore out. Fact is people are horny creatures with no regard to others feelings. Todays generation views vows as retractable. Truth be known, we ALL have friends & neighbors that indulge in the very thing the celebs do.Jenn Aniston was the last Hollyweird "sweetheart" that was dissed when Angelina started sporting penis rides from good ol boy Brad Pitt.Tiger Woods is no sex addict, he's a lonely guy who's wife is busy raising his kids..he's also a "spank me" kinda freak.Jesse James ..well he's a bad boy, Sandra must be a lil freakette herself,I doubt missionary was seldom used in that roll in the hay.Get the fuck over it folks. The world is a sexy, sleezy, sensual place.As I said before time & time again..Let the first of you that are saints throw the stones. Otherwise...SO WHAT???

It's in his kiss

The one true way to find out if it's the real deal may be a bit sappy..but it's gospel.I always said I would know when I found my true love ,when that certain someone held my face with both hands & lifted it up to lay a passionate lip lock on me. I have found that man.Forget the ones that purse their lips so tight it's like kissing a rock.And what about the sloppy droolers..ew. kiss me slobber lips, I can swim.Nope..I gotta stick to what I know to be true,IT IS in his KISS,